What is the very source of my existence?
Who is behind this whole play?
There is an unending list of questions which pop up every once in a while in our minds and compel us to think about our existence on this planet.
Why I am here?
We face this question from many different perspectives. Science tells us a interesting scientific story and religion has got some different answers in store for us.
I personally do not judge them, but at the same time don’t even accept those stories blindly.
It’s been said that heart can provide the most authentic answer, if it is given a chance to express self without any preconceived notion.
Truth can be expressed according to our own understanding, but it’s essence should be relatable and authentic. If different paths are not leading towards one destination then we need to introspect and search for the mystery.
Pain is a window to the wisdom of life, if given a chance to express fully.
It’s is not an easy game to play. We have to face the harsh realities of life and fight for our existence among lots of scurtiny and judgment of people around.
It require real mental strength and courage specially for those, having no emotional support by their side and they can easily get swayed by the negativity of the world around.🙅
At this phase when we are emotionally most vulnerable, broken and helpless, then a voice from the deep core of self tends to cross all the skies and heavens to ask from eternity this very question,“ Why my life is so painful?”
Who is behind this whole drama of life?
Where is God?
If you ask me, when ever I put these questions to me I kind of go blank. I can’t explain that feeling because it’s quite difficult to explain those deep emotions in words. But still I will try to put it in a simplest way.
I feel like I m getting lost in a vacuum, with an unusual feeling of emptiness. It’s kind of scary too because there is nothing but me yet I am also lost somwhere. There is a deep silence and I kind of feel like merging with that silence. I don’t feel comfortable as I find loosing myself in a deep space feeling numb.
It’s not easy to choose one theory of our existence over other. With time and experiences we tend to shift our views as our perception also changes according to our understanding of life.
What is the perfect way to seek answers ?
We all learn and grow in various cultures and backgrounds having different experiences in our respective lives.
There is not a fixed way to search for the truth. All those paths which resonate with our hearts lead us in a certain direction which we wish to accept and follow.
I can talk about my ways which I feel like persuing.
Awareness and books for me are the best method to look for answers.
- Awareness can be achieved by various methods like Meditation, Mindfulness and watching our emotions in a detached manner or be an observer.
- Books are one of the finest way to understand this world in depth, as every writer will have their own unique experiences and learnings to share with the world. We may agree or disagree with their views, but we will have bunch of experiences of people before us, from where we can apply that learning in our life according to our own choice. Sometimes we can co relate with someone’s experiences to such an extent that we feel connected with those emotions.
Life is definitely an unresolved mystery and perhaps this search also keeps us going for years . This mystery might be a lifeline for humans to explore more and more so as to expand our level of consciousness.
Who knows the truth?
I don’t know what is the ultimate truth, but I am definitely not going to give up and wait for others to tell me my reality .👼
My search is on....
